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Weekly Winners: My Boy is Three!

My New Year’s Baby turned 3, and on Saturday the 2nd, we had a little party for him.

He started the day wearing Mommy’s necklace.

Ethan "The Little Man"

His best friends came over.

Aidan "The Big Guy"

Chloe "C.C."

He got some help blowing out the candle.

I paid WAY too much for this cake…

…but I guess it was worth it.

While the kids burned off the sugar high by racing around the dining room table…

…I loved up on Baby Odin.

They wrapped up the party by attacking Daddy B (Aidan’s dad) with party favors!

It was pretty much the perfect party.

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Bringin’ Mommy Bloggin’ Back

Dear Little Man,

I can’t believe how much you have grown in the year since I stopped Mommy Blogging (Let’s face it — I totally let this ship sink. But can you blame me?? You are WAY more work now. You just. don’t. stop. (Moving on.)).

I love that you still say you are “Mama’s baby.” You make sure I know, and Daddy knows, that YOU are MY baby and Daddy’s Big Boy.

You have a smile that will excuse most of your sins. Flashing that grin and trying to win us over to avoid a time-out? Pretty sure you learned that trick from Mama.

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One day a few months ago, you told me that you wanted to go pee-pee on the potty. I was compliant, as usual, but VERY surprised when you actually wanted to pull down your pants and diaper and then proceeded to PEE! ON THE POTTY!!! Like, WHOA, dude.

Since then we’ve had our accidents and what are clearly NOT accidents, but you pretty much potty trained yourself at two and a half. Pretty cool, dude. We’re proud and stuff, but it’d be okay if you still wanted to piss in your diapers. But the pooping on the potty thing?? FUCK YES. Thank you sweet baby Jesus.

You are clear about wanting a baby brother and NOT a baby sister. We’re not sure what that says about your relationships with your friends, but we’re hoping you’ll like a baby sister just as well if that’s what you end up with. We’d like to be working on that project, but DANG KID, you could go to bed a little bit earlier, mmkay?? Help a mom out.

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You started “toddler school” in June with your best girl friend, CC. At first you hated being left, but now you LOVE it. We even had one of your teachers babysit last night and you were like, “Later dudes!! Get the eff out cuz I gots a hot date with my fave teach!!” and we were all, “Well OKAY THEN!! We’ll LEAVE!! Love ya, bye!!!” So we went out and had a fabulous time.

If I could make a request it would be that you quit the ugly face and whiny voice. That shit is TOTALLY annoying. CAN. NOT. STAND. IT. And don’t try to work that smile on me, baby! NOT WORKING THIS TIME!!

One incarnation of the Ugly Face

One incarnation of the Ugly Face

No matter what, I love you, my Big Boy. Don’t worry, you’ll always be my Baby.

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Love,
Mama V

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17 Things About 17 Months

Dear Little Man,

Here are seventeen reflections on your seventeen months, since you turn eighteen months tomorrow. (Where did all the time go, my big boy??)

1) You can now RUN instead of just WALK. Greeeeeaaaatt.

2) You no longer like warm baths and instead prefer lukewarm ones. This is quite the problem for “family bath” time as your Father and I prefer warm baths, thank you very much.

3) You can now eat a whole ear of corn all by yourself. It’s super cute and a great way to shut you up keep you occupied for ten minutes.

4) You are outgrowing your size five shoes, which I thought would *never* happen…I swear those things looked HUGE a few months ago!

5) You say and sign for “more.” However, when you say “more” it sounds like “mo.”

6) You have become a climber. You climb on your toys, on your highchair, on the kitchen stool…anything worth climbing, you climb. It’s great fun for Mom.

7) You have two different personalities now — one with your best girlfriend CC, and one with your best friend Aidan (the Big Guy). With CC you are totally crazy and outgoing, and with Aidan you are more relaxed and mellow.

8) You have become re-attached to nursing, mostly thanks to our nine day East Coast vacation, where you nursed for 50% of the flight there. Seriously.

9) However you are now able to go to bed without nursing, either with Daddy, Amy, or Grammy. This relieves Mommy greatly.

10) You stacked FIVE BLOCKS!!! on top of each other! I couldn’t believe it! Your fine motor skills are THROUGH THE ROOF!!

11) You now say things with an upswing in your affect. For example, you say “NOooooAH!” It’s really cute and helps Mom keep her cool when you say “No” over and over again.

12) You have finally entered your “No” phase. (Heh.)

13) Amy and CC have introduced you to “Ring around the rosy.” You LOVE it, most of all the DOOOWWWN!! part. It’s pretty much the whole point of the dance and song for you. You are SO cute falling to the ground.

14) While in the double stroller you and CC hold hands. SO precious! (Oooooh, Little Man’s got a GIRLfriend!!)

15) You can now answer my questions about what you want. However, “No” also means “Yes.” A “no” without a facial expression, or with a “no” facial expression means “no.” A “no” with a huge smile means “yes.” You are too cute, mister.

16) You are obsessed with your “Potty Train” DVD and LOVE to say, “choo-choo” but are CLEARLY not anywhere near ready to potty train, even though you can sign “potty” and sit on your potty (fully clothed of course).

17) You keep me guessing every step of the way. Previously you HATED books, and now you LOVE them, with a passion. I don’t “get” you all of the time, kid, but I LOVE YOU. You are totally My Cracker.

I hope you won’t hold it against me that I have not been able to keep you totally up to date on all of your accomplishments. Just try to think of yourself as a second child, like I was, and be thankful for what you DO have. Like all of the photos.

All my love, my big, big, almost eighteen month old boy,

Mama

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Two Weeks

Two weeks since I last posted. Two weeks. I’ve seriously lost my blogging mojo.

I’m having an internal struggle with the nature of blogging. How much do I want to share? If I don’t want to share some special moments, but feel like blogging them is the only way they are going to get recorded, what do I do?

This blog is largely a way for me to record my son’s progress and life and to explore my new role as a mother. I’m terrible at keeping a diary/journal, and haven’t even purchased a physical baby book for the Little Man. Keeping this blog felt like something I could do — occasionally updating to record his milestones and show my friends and family, and myself, how much he has changed over the last year+.

I’ve been selfish lately, wanting to keep these memories all to myself. But I also understand that these memories get lost, and misremembered, when I don’t record them in some way. And I desperately want to remember every detail…they are already starting to fade.

If I had the courage to ignore the fact that much of my extended family reads this blog, I would tell you about more intimate moments, many of them involving my boobs. Not because I think you’d be interested, but because nursing has been such a HUGE part of our relationship, and it’s important for me to remember and record those moments.

I’d like to tell you (preserve the memory for myself) how we’re still nursing, at least four times a day. How I love laying in bed with him in the morning, having a big nurse, both of us closing our eyes and trying to wake up a little more before starting our day. I’d tell you about how he can find the “target” with such ease and grace now, not even needing assistance from me to begin nursing. It truly amazes me how well he takes care of business now. It is such a dramatic departure from what we were doing a year ago, struggling to stop using the nipple shield.

I would tell you how much it amuses me, and makes me proud, strangely enough, that he bobbles my breast in his hands and opens wide, bringing his comfort deftly to his mouth.

I would tell you about how much part of me wants to wean, and part of me is grasping onto every last moment.

I would tell you about how embarrassing it can be when we’re in public and my son is literally ripping my shirt off because he’s upset or tired and wants to nurse. I would also tell you about how sweet it is that he sometimes just wants to put his hand down my shirt, without urgency, for comfort.

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I would tell you about how this blogging thing makes me a bit uncomfortable when I see people in real life who I know keep up with the blog. It is funny when people know what is going on with your life even when you haven’t spoken to them in days or months. I guess that’s the nature of blogging though — to share your life. Yes?

It is surprising to me when people DO mention what they’ve seen on the blog, and also when they DON’T. This makes me censor myself.

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I would tell you about how I desperately want to use the Little Man’s real name when I talk about him, but feel like that’s really not an option because of how my family feels about this being a public blog. I just really feel like there is a fakeness to my writing when I can’t really talk about “us.” I’m talking about VDog & Little Man, our online personae, rather than Victoria & her son.

I’m considering using a psuedonym, because while perhaps not any less “fake,” it would at least allow my to use a real name, and not just “Little Man.”

He won’t always be a little man.

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I would tell you about how busy my son is keeping me, and how much I am enjoying paying attention to him.

I would tell you about how I am spending more time with my husband. I am more present in my evenings with him when I am not trying to blog at the same time.

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In short, my life is very full of wonderful things. Making time to blog has just not been important to me lately. I have a lot of topics I WANT to blog about, but part of me is holding back, because a) I don’t have that much time to blog anymore, and b) I am afraid of overstepping familial boundaries for the sake of a funny or personally fulfilling post.

I’m not sure how much of “me” I’m willing to share.

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I got my first offer to review something last week. I am excited to be getting an advance copy of The Rookie Mom’s Handbook. I’ll let you know what I think very soon.

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We had Little Man’s fifteen month appointment today. He is doing so well. I’ll fill you in on the complete details later.

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If after all this, you STILL care about VDog & Little Man, you may want to consider adding me to your reader or signing up for email updates. That way you’ll know when I actually post again. Either that, or, you know, obsessively check back for updates. Whatever works for you.

Best,
V

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Sentimental

Nursing on my mind
Impostor Mom has weaned Boog
Don’t think we’re ready

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It’s Haiku Friday.

Now that Little Man is taking a sippy cup, the option of starting to wean is there, but I don’t think we’re ready just yet. I feel like this is going to go on forever, but not in a bad, oppressive way, if that makes any sense. It just seems like something we do, and I can’t imagine our life without it.

Yesterday we didn’t nurse immediately after the afternoon nap, as we usually do. Two hours later he was frantic to nurse (he had been drinking water from a sippy in the meantime, so it’s not as if he was thirsty). I’m reading this as “he’s not ready.”

Impostor Mom’s son, Boog, is only a few days older than Little Man. Boog’s interest had been waning, and they had a natural, baby-led weaning experience. That’s what I want for Little Man and myself. It seems far off at this point. I know I’ll be sad when it happens.

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Little Man seems to be dropping his morning nap — at least that’s what some of my friends said when I described this week’s naps (or lack thereof).

He’s almost one year corrected age, and fourteen months chronological age. Is this about the time? I want that morning nap!! I usually sleep then, too. I am really tired this week. ;)

Any thoughts on moving naps and holding on to my sanity are welcome.
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Have a great weekend everybody. I have some SUPER cute pictures of the Little Man for Weekly Winners on Sunday, and I need to thank all of our wonderful March for Babies supporters. See you then!

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13 Things I Love About 13 Months

For my second Thursday Thirteen ever, I give you Thirteen Things I Love About Little Man Being Thirteen Months Old:

1. He can communicate better. He knows how to sign for nurse, eat, all done and dog. He also barks like a dog, says, “MMMMmmmmm” when he sees a food he likes/wants, and grunts/complains when something isn’t to his liking.

2. He still rests his head on my chest and sucks his thumb when he’s tired and/or just needs mommy. I love this and soak up every second I can get.

3. It’s cute to see him cruising around. All of his age-appropriate (not corrected age) accomplishments truly amaze me.

4. Cruising means SHOES!! Which means shopping for Little Man.

5. His hair is long and super cute:

Hair! from VDog on Vimeo.

6. He is nursing less. While I love the comforting magic and super powers of the boobs, we were still nursing 8-12 times a day at nine months. Now, we’re at probably 6 times a day, with “magical quick nips” here and there. It is RARE that we nurse less than 6 times a day.

7. He can actually play with Sasha (harasses her is more like it) and generally LOVES dogs. He has a love affair with the Norwich Terrier puppy across the street (Hector), and grins, giggles, and squishes up his face when Hector tries to kiss him. Little Man also uses his arm in a “get off me!” kind of way when Hector is getting all up in his grill, which is SUPER CUTE.

Doggy Time from VDog on Vimeo.

8. He now studies things with his eyes and hands/fingers instead of his mouth. This means I can give him my cell phone (oooh…craaaack) without worrying about him flooding the motherboard with drool.

9. He is now in LOOOOOVE with his Daddy.

10. He now has the cutest toothy smile (8 teeth so far!).

11. He can now eat cheese and yogurt!

12. And drink from a sippy cup!! Woot!

13. He’s not a baby, not quite a toddler. Totally cute! I’m holding on to the last semblances of babyhood.

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Because I Haven’t Posted A Video In Approximately 3.7 Days


Sippy! from VDog on Vimeo.

Little Man has started “fake” eating and drinking, which is super cute. He pulls food out of the air, or an empty paper bag, and pretends to put it in his mouth. It really is one of the cutest things I’ve ever seen. Problem is that he does it when he thinks no one is watching — when he’s just off in space cadet land by himself. So once he notices me watching him, he gets kinda shy. Thus, no video of that — yet.

I’ve been working on getting Little Man to take a sippy cup from about four months on. He has always regarded it as something to play with and chew on. Now that he is “drinking” from paper cups in the bath tub (actually he does get some bath water some of the time), and generally mimicking our eating and drinking behavior, he has finally learned how to use the sippy like a normal baby. And for that I am grateful.

In other news, we have started daytime weaning much by default. A few “Dad”urdays (Saturdays) with Warrior off and on have made Little Man less intense about the boob during the day.
Little Man has even gone down for a nap two Saturdays in a row without nursing first. (Totally unbelievable to me!) This past Saturday, I was even there with him, and he just didn’t want to nurse. Before OR after his nap. I was SHOCKED!

That’s the news from our neck of the woods! Hope you all are well and thriving.
-VDog

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Round the Bend and Back Again

I’m sorry my friends
Been really busy lately
Love that you email

Stop by my Buzz page
Wondering where did she go?
Crazy but good week

Huge sigh of relief
A let down of emotion
I cried tears of joy

My baby is fine,
According to the doctors.
Holter was normal

His poo was blood-free
New GI doc was a dream
Said blood was minor

In her opinion
The least worrisome symptom
Of an allergy

Really? Blood in poop?
WTF? How can that be?
With that one symptom

She said, I don’t have
Moms change their diet at all
Wait just a second

I thought, is this real?
Are you fucking kidding me?
My diet for naught?

Nine months without milk?
Five of those without citrus,
Wheat and much much more?

It was hell on me
Worth it for my Little Man
Or so I had thought!

He won’t take any
Mom substitute, starting at
Three months. Boobs only

And all of the time
Guess you can’t beat skin to skin
For my Little Man

It’s been such a ride
So many worries and tests
This first year of life

I hope this next one
Is a wee less exciting
For my sanity

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Insomnia sucks
Blog posts running through my head
Why do I lay there

When I could get up
And blog till my heart’s content?
Guess I hold out hope

That sleep will come soon
I fear the 4:30 feed
So I stay in bed

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So, yes, I’ve been really busy — Mom’s group outings, doctor appointments, my sister’s birthday — but also really preoccupied. It’s been such a relief to finally have a “normal” baby (I know this is such a subjective thing, but from the get-go, things haven’t gone “normally” or the way that they are “supposed to”). It hasn’t quite sunk in yet. I am grieving for this last year+ of worry and doctors, and hospitals, and being strong.

Of course, I am very happy, but it is mostly a feeling of relief. Like a giant weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel like I don’t have to hold my breath anymore. It’s still processing in my brain and I almost can’t believe what has happened these last two weeks.

First, the pediatrician said he was doing great. Then the cardiologist says everything looks great; “normal.” The holter study came back normal. So now if I notice that LM has a fast heart rate, we’ll just take him to the Children’s Hospital ER, but this is unlikely to happen. No more monitoring, no more special heart doctor.

Then we go to the GI doctor this week and it’s a whole different experience from the last few times.

First, a little background: we had a male doctor who had been really harsh with me at times, who had been insistent on my extremely strict diet, and when that didn’t work quickly enough, he seriously wanted my to force my son to drink (completely disgusting) hypo-allergenic formula.

So the last time we saw him, things went well. Dr. H was very blase about the whole situation. I thought it was odd, but was glad that he was more positive. So I went to check out and make the follow up appointment for two months from then (late Sept.). I was told that they “didn’t have his schedule yet,” and to call back in a week. I called back the satellite office where we had been seeing Dr. H. They said, “he doesn’t work out of this office anymore. Let me transfer you to the Main Campus.”

Okay…no problem. Right?? So they transfer me and then the person at the Main Campus says that he doesn’t work in that office anymore! WTF?? So I had to make an appointment with a new doctor, and since LM wasn’t one of “their” patients, we had to wait until this week to see someone.

Okay, this week. We go to the new GI doctor. She is wonderful. The nurse is wonderful. They both oooh and aahhh over Little Man, who is being completely charming, despite only having had a short nap in the car on the way there.

We go over the history. They evaluate him. He gets high scores from the nurse and doctor. We get told to HAVE SOME DAIRY ALREADY!!!

So I’m trying fluid milk this week, and if Little Man has no reaction, we can try some for him. Yippee!! I honestly CAN. NOT. BELIEVE. IT.

I am also a bit annoyed that two doctors had such differing opinions on the course of action that would have been appropriate. The new GI doc said that the only worry with the blood in the stools is if they become anemic. And then she would have just prescribed an iron supplement.

I know it’s all a moot point now, but I can’t help but feel a bit frustrated that all of my hard work and struggle was perhaps not necessary. I’m sure I’ll get over it. Ay caramba.

Oh yeah! And we’re off the heart medicine and the acid reflux medicine for good it seems. I really just can’t get over how lucky we are. I know it’s been a hard year, but I DO feel very lucky that Little Man’s “problems” have (hopefully) only lasted a year. I know that we will most certainly face other hardships and tests in the future, but right now I’m exhaling, and I don’t plan on holding my breath for anything else (especially unknowns).

Okay, I know I don’t usually swear (save for ass and crap and stuff I don’t really think is “that bad”) but hey, the ‘ku needed it, and it’s what I thought and said to Warrior when I relayed how the visit went. Hopefully my family won’t hold it against me!

In bloggy news, I REALLY want to be back “in it” if ya know what I’m saying, but I haven’t been getting much screen time with the compy, so forgive me if I’m being a “bad blog friend.” I need to start “blogging without guilt.” Heheh.

Have a great weekend, everybody, and I CAN promise some Weekly Winners on Sunday — I took some good ones on our adventures out and about!

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Haiku Update

It’s been a big week
One year pediatrician
Well child appointment

Monday. Thursday was
The last cardiologist
Visit, hopefully

Heart and head healthy,
Big things for my Little Man ~
I am so thankful!

Haiku Friday

So Monday we had the ONE YEAR APPOINTMENT!!!! We made it! Woohoo!! Here’s how the Little Man stacked up (I post these for family & friends; I’ve been told it is one of their favorite things to read about):

Head circumference = 48.5 cm = 95% (HUGE considering he was two months early. And actually he jumped from the 90% at 9 months, so we’re just gonna wait and see how he measures at the 15 month appointment — if he jumps again, we’ll do a head ultrasound to check for hydrocephaly, which is common among preemies, but right now the doc doesn’t think it’s a concern, since his cognitive abilities are on-track. The doc asked if large heads run in the family, lol, which they do!)

Height = 30 inches = 60% (roughly, he wasn’t cooperating very well during this measurement!)

Weight = 19lbs 4oz = 6% (up 14+ pounds from birth, though!)

So the Little Man continues with his supermodel body type — huge head on a tall, skinny body. All cuteness.

It’s hard to believe that a year ago he was a tiny baby in the hospital, and now he’s almost a little boy!

Yesterday we went for what I hope was our last appointment with the cardiologist. They did an EKG, which was normal, we chatted with the doctor for a little bit, and then he was fitted with a holter monitor, which is basically a 24hr EKG.

As long as the holter study results come back with no arrhythmia’s, Little Man will no longer have to be on medication or see the cardiologist. He came off of the medicine about ten days ago to “challenge” him for the holter study. If he has another episode, we will have to go to the hospital and get an EKG and go back on medicine for the foreseeable future. But the doctor is hopeful that Little Man has outgrown this quirk.

Big head, nice shoulders, skinny body
With his “iPod”
Monitor leads & super cool shirt holding it all on

Since he wasn’t crawling the last time he had a holter study, this was the first time he got this AWESOME shirt to keep the monitor in place. Before they just rubber banded it to his onesie.

I gave him the light-up pen that my phlebotomist gave me when he found out I was pregnant so that I could take the monitor off of him.

All the people in the cardiologist’s office came to say Hi to him, since he was so cute (as always) and was one of the only babies in the office not crying.

I’ll find out next week what the results of the holter study are.

Next week we see the GI doc (more on THAT drama later) to check in about the milk protein allergy issue. Hopefully we’ll be done with that office, too!

Have a great weekend, everyone!!

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New Trick



He can’t get up there by himself, but he’s totally obsessed with standing and holding onto the edge. He even makes his way around the perimeter over and over again, stopping along the way for baby squats and hanging off the rail. If he falls down, he complains until you pick him back up and put him on the edge again. Silly Bunny.

Mostly Wordless Wednesday.

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